after thought

Well, it's always a good idea to wait 24 hours before you post anything. AFter sleeping on that issue last night and waking up really really late, i have new revelations about it. while it's still a bad feeling to be 24 and in a graduate program that feels a lot like high school with the drama going on, i am much more at ease with the situation because:

1. if i didn't like most of these people already, what do i care why they think about me?

2. it's possible that i wont keep in touch with most of them when i graduate (considering there's 170 in the class), esp if i move to another state/country. So it really serves no purpose for me to keep the friends who aren't there for me around. People can be so fickle and i should know better than that now i'm older. my dad was right when he said that you only need so many close friends in your life. i already have more people who i know who care about me a lot and the rest can just come and go. of course i wouldn't want things to be this way, but i have to look at it like this when the situation is below-optimal.

3. and i'm going to get a head-start on researching all the summer internship programs. i WILL FIND ONE and kick some people's a**es for always acting like they have all the connections and experience.

4. and i will ignore the horrible people at work because when i graduate, they will still be there for a long, long time to come.


i hope this post sounds less psycho-ish....:P at least i'm channeling my frustrating into motivation...right?