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2010年7月4日 星期日
2010年6月21日 星期一
Why I haven't been updating as much
Well, two reasons:
1) Since my gmail account got hacked, I decided to discontinue using my old account and started a new one. However, the annoying thing thing is (as with all online social communities), all of my accounts are LINKED to gmail. That includes my gchat contacts, picasa photo album as well as my blog. Therefore, these links cannot be RE-LINKED to my new gmail account. So now i have to actually log into my old gmail in order to update my blog which is a hassel to do. And god knows how many hackers have browsed through my blog/pictures freely now. So i am seriously contemplating about starting a new blog. But that again will take some time and effort. And I really like this one because it's almost like a diary to me. I'm already lazy enough to update my blog, not to mention starting a BRAND NEW one. maybe when I move to NJ and have nothing better to do.
2) After graduation i have been packing like crazy to first ship my car, then i went on a couple trips (the most recent one with my family to Europe). And now i have to worry about shipping MYSELF there. So that adds a lot of stress to my last few days here in CA.
ok, now that i've explained myself (sort of), i'm gonna write a new post). ;)
1) Since my gmail account got hacked, I decided to discontinue using my old account and started a new one. However, the annoying thing thing is (as with all online social communities), all of my accounts are LINKED to gmail. That includes my gchat contacts, picasa photo album as well as my blog. Therefore, these links cannot be RE-LINKED to my new gmail account. So now i have to actually log into my old gmail in order to update my blog which is a hassel to do. And god knows how many hackers have browsed through my blog/pictures freely now. So i am seriously contemplating about starting a new blog. But that again will take some time and effort. And I really like this one because it's almost like a diary to me. I'm already lazy enough to update my blog, not to mention starting a BRAND NEW one. maybe when I move to NJ and have nothing better to do.
2) After graduation i have been packing like crazy to first ship my car, then i went on a couple trips (the most recent one with my family to Europe). And now i have to worry about shipping MYSELF there. So that adds a lot of stress to my last few days here in CA.
ok, now that i've explained myself (sort of), i'm gonna write a new post). ;)
2010年6月5日 星期六
Car SHIPPED
:(.....was my face when I saw my car being driven away.
I started packing about 2 days ago and have been doing it in a systematic way. I didn't realize how much stuff I need to bring with me until I actually started making a list. So I managed to fit in all my bedding stuff, a folding bookshelf, 2 large drawers, my printer, and a bunch of shoes and winter clothes, as well as stuff I can't very well bring with me when I fly over(like my favorite dvd collections/fun reads).
I have been getting more and more anxious about the move. I definitely felt sad that my car was going to leave first. My car is my second home, i've had it since college and it's been everywhere with me. I've moved so many times with it and it's taken so much beating from all of my driving around. And now my dear car is goin to embark on this journey before me. I'm sure I will feel so much better when I meet my car again in three weeks. Everything I have from CA is in the car and that sense of familiarity will really help calm me down.
Anyway, I am glad that at least my family is still here with me so i dont feel half as bad. Yesterday I already bidded some of my friends goodbye. Man it'll be hard when 6/27 comes around. :(
I started packing about 2 days ago and have been doing it in a systematic way. I didn't realize how much stuff I need to bring with me until I actually started making a list. So I managed to fit in all my bedding stuff, a folding bookshelf, 2 large drawers, my printer, and a bunch of shoes and winter clothes, as well as stuff I can't very well bring with me when I fly over(like my favorite dvd collections/fun reads).
I have been getting more and more anxious about the move. I definitely felt sad that my car was going to leave first. My car is my second home, i've had it since college and it's been everywhere with me. I've moved so many times with it and it's taken so much beating from all of my driving around. And now my dear car is goin to embark on this journey before me. I'm sure I will feel so much better when I meet my car again in three weeks. Everything I have from CA is in the car and that sense of familiarity will really help calm me down.
Anyway, I am glad that at least my family is still here with me so i dont feel half as bad. Yesterday I already bidded some of my friends goodbye. Man it'll be hard when 6/27 comes around. :(
2010年6月1日 星期二
唉
"Your K+ is normal. :-)"
"Yes please drink more fluids. And please let me see you in one month."
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the last two messages I ever received from my cute doc. haha. yes pathetic I know. Well, basically i never could go back in one month because my student insurance Student Health coverage expired. I can either go to a clinic of my choice and pay the co-pay only, or go back to Student Health and pay $100+ to be seen for my skin irritation. So I made the choice and chose the former. AND because I am not crazy....i suppose i am rational enough to stay the hell away from people who i have a crush on. :( My sister was TRYING to convince me that he WANTS to see me therefore he said it that way in the message, and of course, being extremely rational and NORMAL, i feel otherwise.
So i ended up visiting this other practitioner in my area who i randomly found on the internet. He turned out to be this inpersonable old doctor who spent like 30 sec with you, didn't even shake my hand or even really tactilly inspect my 'dermatitis', didn't even use his precious hand to write prescriptions instead had a nurse do it for him while he dictated, and prescribed a bunch of overly priced, manufacture-coupon incented creams/lotions which you can probably get rather cheaply if you go with the GENERIC versions of them that would cost you $5/tube and not $40 with coupon. (the drug companies are smart enough to also use the coupons to track the prescribing habit of each practitioner so at the end of the either these docs can receive some kick-back or bonus for it). and so i could not pick up my prescription today as a result because these drugs are simply too new! they have to be ordered and will come in God-knows-when. Probably should have spent the extra money at student health to get my dermatitis checked out...at least visually it's far more pleasant.
.....
So back to my hot doc: i do feel somewhat like a loser. he could be gay, could have a gf, could just be a really nice person and a good doctor in general. Although we did have a nice little chat last time I went in I feel that it probably happens with everyone. AND. i'm moving. AND, i know nothing about him (i know something, but not everything) so he could have some weird habit on the side (like hanging out at the strip bar)....
唉.
"Yes please drink more fluids. And please let me see you in one month."
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the last two messages I ever received from my cute doc. haha. yes pathetic I know. Well, basically i never could go back in one month because my student insurance Student Health coverage expired. I can either go to a clinic of my choice and pay the co-pay only, or go back to Student Health and pay $100+ to be seen for my skin irritation. So I made the choice and chose the former. AND because I am not crazy....i suppose i am rational enough to stay the hell away from people who i have a crush on. :( My sister was TRYING to convince me that he WANTS to see me therefore he said it that way in the message, and of course, being extremely rational and NORMAL, i feel otherwise.
So i ended up visiting this other practitioner in my area who i randomly found on the internet. He turned out to be this inpersonable old doctor who spent like 30 sec with you, didn't even shake my hand or even really tactilly inspect my 'dermatitis', didn't even use his precious hand to write prescriptions instead had a nurse do it for him while he dictated, and prescribed a bunch of overly priced, manufacture-coupon incented creams/lotions which you can probably get rather cheaply if you go with the GENERIC versions of them that would cost you $5/tube and not $40 with coupon. (the drug companies are smart enough to also use the coupons to track the prescribing habit of each practitioner so at the end of the either these docs can receive some kick-back or bonus for it). and so i could not pick up my prescription today as a result because these drugs are simply too new! they have to be ordered and will come in God-knows-when. Probably should have spent the extra money at student health to get my dermatitis checked out...at least visually it's far more pleasant.
.....
So back to my hot doc: i do feel somewhat like a loser. he could be gay, could have a gf, could just be a really nice person and a good doctor in general. Although we did have a nice little chat last time I went in I feel that it probably happens with everyone. AND. i'm moving. AND, i know nothing about him (i know something, but not everything) so he could have some weird habit on the side (like hanging out at the strip bar)....
唉.
2010年5月19日 星期三
Post the Hacker attack...駭客入侵記
before I blog about the graduation, let me first talk about this serious incident which happened to my email account 2 days ago...
So around 6am on the 17th, i was woken up by a few text messages which totally annoyed me. When i checked it, a friend who I normally don't talk to asked me if i was in "Spain" because he had received an email about it. And he suggested that I take a look at my email. I then tried logging into it with my phone to no avail. THAT's when i realized that things were getting serious. I jumped out of bed and found out I was locked out of my own email account. And since I was using my sister's computer she left her email account open and I was able to see an email from 'myself' about having a relative in Spain who has a medical emergency for which I would need a large amount of money. I freaked out and realized that THIS email is actually being sent out to everyone on my gmail, the account which I've had for the past 9 years! If my not-so-good friend had received it, I was pretty darn sure the whole school had received it, let alone all of my previous housing/job contacts from my ucsd and usc years. I contacted gmail immediately through my backup email.
and my suspicion was confirmed.
for the next one hour i kept getting text messages about the email. When I finally showed up at school for the review session for the board i was stopped in the hall way many times, and people were asking me if i realized my email was being 'hacked'. some people actually got quite worried because they thought the email was quite convincing. Then during class one of the usc administrator actually walked in looking for me (in front of about 180 people). I had to leave the classroom to explain my situation. Apparently the email also contained my usc signature which made it a bigger deal than normal. He than promised that the tech support will look into it also.
Throughout the entire morning my phone kept ringing, from Baxter, from Berlitz (where i took my french), from school, and when i checked my email even some professors from usc and ucsd got back to me about the hacker attack, some offering tips on email password security. Luckily my gmail account was unlocked at that point so i was able to retrieve all of my contact information and wrote up another reminder to 'warn' people about it. that was 5 hrs post the hacker attack.
I guess at the end of the day, the really weird but sweet awakening is that, I can't believe how many people cared about me. And I dont mean this in a sarcastic or self-deprecating way. I mean really, usually I would think people are so immune to spams now they just hit 'delete' and move on. but i was getting texts/emails/phone calls from everybody, some people who i haven't talked to in years, about the spam. it was such a weird feeling because although the incident is sad and inconvenient (I lost all of my 1000+ archived emails), but the fact that people called and wrote to make sure i was okay, really made me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside. Could it be possible that people actually care about me more than I think they do? And I am saying this becuase oddly enough some of my 'closer' friends did not respond right away, but rather those who i've lost touch with for years, wether a old job contact/housing contact/old acquaintance, did so enthusiastically. It also made me wonder if unknowingly, i had the opportunity to touch this many people's lives, or at least left a slight mark, that made them feel the need to take time out of their busy day to reach out and warn me. some people were actually offering to help financially, and I had NO IDEA the impact would be so!
So I guess what I am trying to say is, although I was deeply bothered by the trouble i had to go through, including terminating everything, reformat my computer, canceling all email-forwarding, at the end of the day, i feel really good about reconnecting with some of the old friends who i used to have. I have chatted with people i've worked with during my Baxter days, ucsd professors, usc professors, NJ housing contacts who investigated for me, preceptor from Hawaii, and many more. I am not advocating that you send out a fake SPAM of course ;)....but I think it sort of helps me put things into perspective, that i should be extremely THANKFUL for all the love around me.
At the end of the day, I feel like everything is going to be O-K. :)
So around 6am on the 17th, i was woken up by a few text messages which totally annoyed me. When i checked it, a friend who I normally don't talk to asked me if i was in "Spain" because he had received an email about it. And he suggested that I take a look at my email. I then tried logging into it with my phone to no avail. THAT's when i realized that things were getting serious. I jumped out of bed and found out I was locked out of my own email account. And since I was using my sister's computer she left her email account open and I was able to see an email from 'myself' about having a relative in Spain who has a medical emergency for which I would need a large amount of money. I freaked out and realized that THIS email is actually being sent out to everyone on my gmail, the account which I've had for the past 9 years! If my not-so-good friend had received it, I was pretty darn sure the whole school had received it, let alone all of my previous housing/job contacts from my ucsd and usc years. I contacted gmail immediately through my backup email.
and my suspicion was confirmed.
for the next one hour i kept getting text messages about the email. When I finally showed up at school for the review session for the board i was stopped in the hall way many times, and people were asking me if i realized my email was being 'hacked'. some people actually got quite worried because they thought the email was quite convincing. Then during class one of the usc administrator actually walked in looking for me (in front of about 180 people). I had to leave the classroom to explain my situation. Apparently the email also contained my usc signature which made it a bigger deal than normal. He than promised that the tech support will look into it also.
Throughout the entire morning my phone kept ringing, from Baxter, from Berlitz (where i took my french), from school, and when i checked my email even some professors from usc and ucsd got back to me about the hacker attack, some offering tips on email password security. Luckily my gmail account was unlocked at that point so i was able to retrieve all of my contact information and wrote up another reminder to 'warn' people about it. that was 5 hrs post the hacker attack.
I guess at the end of the day, the really weird but sweet awakening is that, I can't believe how many people cared about me. And I dont mean this in a sarcastic or self-deprecating way. I mean really, usually I would think people are so immune to spams now they just hit 'delete' and move on. but i was getting texts/emails/phone calls from everybody, some people who i haven't talked to in years, about the spam. it was such a weird feeling because although the incident is sad and inconvenient (I lost all of my 1000+ archived emails), but the fact that people called and wrote to make sure i was okay, really made me feel warm and fuzzy on the inside. Could it be possible that people actually care about me more than I think they do? And I am saying this becuase oddly enough some of my 'closer' friends did not respond right away, but rather those who i've lost touch with for years, wether a old job contact/housing contact/old acquaintance, did so enthusiastically. It also made me wonder if unknowingly, i had the opportunity to touch this many people's lives, or at least left a slight mark, that made them feel the need to take time out of their busy day to reach out and warn me. some people were actually offering to help financially, and I had NO IDEA the impact would be so!
So I guess what I am trying to say is, although I was deeply bothered by the trouble i had to go through, including terminating everything, reformat my computer, canceling all email-forwarding, at the end of the day, i feel really good about reconnecting with some of the old friends who i used to have. I have chatted with people i've worked with during my Baxter days, ucsd professors, usc professors, NJ housing contacts who investigated for me, preceptor from Hawaii, and many more. I am not advocating that you send out a fake SPAM of course ;)....but I think it sort of helps me put things into perspective, that i should be extremely THANKFUL for all the love around me.
At the end of the day, I feel like everything is going to be O-K. :)
2010年4月25日 星期日
又一顆超級紅色炸彈
去年和今年加起來的喜訊已經夠多了
婚禮啦 懷孕啦 訂婚啦
我本人對喜事是沒有甚麼意見的
但高興歸高興 總是不免想到自己
一個人出席的婚禮總是帶著一絲絲的尷尬
接捧花啦 坐在不認識的人旁邊 聊著自己為什麼單身
尤其是第一支舞完後的那所有couple跳的舞
自己站在舞池邊彷彿在跟全世界宣告自己小小的挫敗
聽著新人們精心挑選的情歌
當初我也曾想過 我也要放這條曲子
結果等ㄚ等的...
在確定出席一場超級豪華婚禮後
又接到另一個住在灣區的大學室友的save the date
結果....
今天另一位室友告知我她也懷孕了的消息
還說因為她自己的媽媽三十歲才生她
希望早一點在三十歲前當媽媽
以免跑不動了
.....
......
.......
可想而知我心中的反應
不是才26歲嗎
到底大家再急甚麼
為什麼我旁邊的人讓我覺得
自己雖然二十多歲 卻有著三十幾的心境
我其實一點也不羨慕
我當媽媽的本能還沒啟發
也不是很能想像懷孕的感覺
當新娘子雖然不賴
但是對的人 對的時間 才會想定下來
朋友們愛碎碎念自己的老公男朋友或未婚夫的不是
那為什麼又要在一起呢
我大部分的時間
可以做自己想要做的是
可以試自己想要試的餐廳
可以和朋友去自己想要去的地方玩
但這一切的一切
在還沒找到認真的另一半前
在以結婚自豪的人眼中 還是爸媽的眼中
叫做麻醉自己的行為
....
.....
每天我的想法都改變一點點
還有三年三十歲
還可以再衝三年嗎
到時候後悔會不會來不及
但我還想好好享受我的人生阿
我還想冒險
還想學新東西
還想多多利用我的青春
還想要無憂無慮在多一下下
近期聽到的忠告:
多多把握身邊的機會吧!
看來 選擇的權利
戀愛的權利
越來越少了
婚禮啦 懷孕啦 訂婚啦
我本人對喜事是沒有甚麼意見的
但高興歸高興 總是不免想到自己
一個人出席的婚禮總是帶著一絲絲的尷尬
接捧花啦 坐在不認識的人旁邊 聊著自己為什麼單身
尤其是第一支舞完後的那所有couple跳的舞
自己站在舞池邊彷彿在跟全世界宣告自己小小的挫敗
聽著新人們精心挑選的情歌
當初我也曾想過 我也要放這條曲子
結果等ㄚ等的...
在確定出席一場超級豪華婚禮後
又接到另一個住在灣區的大學室友的save the date
結果....
今天另一位室友告知我她也懷孕了的消息
還說因為她自己的媽媽三十歲才生她
希望早一點在三十歲前當媽媽
以免跑不動了
.....
......
.......
可想而知我心中的反應
不是才26歲嗎
到底大家再急甚麼
為什麼我旁邊的人讓我覺得
自己雖然二十多歲 卻有著三十幾的心境
我其實一點也不羨慕
我當媽媽的本能還沒啟發
也不是很能想像懷孕的感覺
當新娘子雖然不賴
但是對的人 對的時間 才會想定下來
朋友們愛碎碎念自己的老公男朋友或未婚夫的不是
那為什麼又要在一起呢
我大部分的時間
可以做自己想要做的是
可以試自己想要試的餐廳
可以和朋友去自己想要去的地方玩
但這一切的一切
在還沒找到認真的另一半前
在以結婚自豪的人眼中 還是爸媽的眼中
叫做麻醉自己的行為
....
.....
每天我的想法都改變一點點
還有三年三十歲
還可以再衝三年嗎
到時候後悔會不會來不及
但我還想好好享受我的人生阿
我還想冒險
還想學新東西
還想多多利用我的青春
還想要無憂無慮在多一下下
近期聽到的忠告:
多多把握身邊的機會吧!
看來 選擇的權利
戀愛的權利
越來越少了
After thoughts about the fellowship
Things have been well. I guess since i found out about the fellowship offer things have been going in a generally positive direction. Other than the craziness I must deal with in terms of making the cross country move, I have felt a big weight being lifted off my shoulder.
Last weekend I had awesome dinner at a school banquet. It was held at a Mediterranean restaurant called Cafe Santorini. We took over one of the banquet halls and each got our sash. What a enjoyable moment! I especially love (out of vanity) when the "where are they going" slide came up, the moment where they announced how I will be a future fellow at Bristol Myers Squibb. I had only told a few close friends, so many people were surprised when they heard the announcement. Like I said before, I never even thought this could happen, and I am VERY GLAD that at the end of all this, I was able to land SOMETHING. and that something happens to be something I wanted very much which was at the top of my list. I may not have written about this before in my blog but I later found out where the other people are going. And I must say that I personally feel that I got the best end of the deal. I didn't want any two-year committment, especially in areas like regulatory affairs or medical information, which can be very dry when it only deals with one little aspect of pharmaceutical industry. So the fact that I am in the arena of Diabetes/Cardiovascular is already exciting enough, AND i get to oversee the newest clinical studies and make strategies. I hope this doesn't come out in a self-fulfilling tone, but I have always been disgusted with some people in our class who choose to market themselves by being exclusive, being cliquey, being brown-nosers...and I wanted to do none of that. I had forced myself to be involved with this organization on campus where like-minded people get together about wanting to pursue a life in industry, and i was so sick of it after two years. I quit after one year of serving on the board. People in it made fun of people and gossiped about each other during Board Dinner. And they only consider you 'useful' when you have something they want. I have always considered myself a social person (on the outside) but I just couldtn' deal with them anymore I didn't even attend the end-of-the year banquet (which was a big NO-NO). I couldn't spend another minute sitting at a table feeling like I wish I could be somewhere else. Hence I am glad that through it all, i am able to land a position that will likely make them fall off the chair upon hearing it. I just want to prove a point, that you dont have compromise who you are in order to get to where you want to be.
All happy thoughts aside, This of course is a very early point of my career to say that I've accomplished it all. Right now I will be working primarily in the cardiovascular/diabetes market. Although a HUGE market, this is not really where my passion lies. I had wanted to do branch into oncology because that seems to be the hot topic right now, but after 2 rotations at a cancer hospital I can't say I am in love with it. A part of me is still very resistant and disliking the complete unpredictability of chemo drugs. Rather, after 4 weeks into my current rotation, I am finding my passion in psychiatry back. Lots of interesting patient cases and lots of miracles can be done with antipsychotics/mood stabilizers/antidepressants. I'm not a total believer that everyone needs to be on something, there's lots that can be done with cognitive behavioral therapy/counseling. but i HAVE seen it work wonders in the most bizarre cases, which is the reason why psychiatry is so interesting. I sincerely hope, that one day, wherever life leads me, I can pursue it further whether that means going back to the research of psychotropics and just give pharmacy a rest. :)
That's is for now. So the much-delayed announcement on my blog is that, I am joining Bristol-Myers Squibb as a 1-year fellow in CV/Metabolic's Scientific Communication and Medical Strategy department. :) Yeah it's a mouthful....
And I will miss home a lot.
Last weekend I had awesome dinner at a school banquet. It was held at a Mediterranean restaurant called Cafe Santorini. We took over one of the banquet halls and each got our sash. What a enjoyable moment! I especially love (out of vanity) when the "where are they going" slide came up, the moment where they announced how I will be a future fellow at Bristol Myers Squibb. I had only told a few close friends, so many people were surprised when they heard the announcement. Like I said before, I never even thought this could happen, and I am VERY GLAD that at the end of all this, I was able to land SOMETHING. and that something happens to be something I wanted very much which was at the top of my list. I may not have written about this before in my blog but I later found out where the other people are going. And I must say that I personally feel that I got the best end of the deal. I didn't want any two-year committment, especially in areas like regulatory affairs or medical information, which can be very dry when it only deals with one little aspect of pharmaceutical industry. So the fact that I am in the arena of Diabetes/Cardiovascular is already exciting enough, AND i get to oversee the newest clinical studies and make strategies. I hope this doesn't come out in a self-fulfilling tone, but I have always been disgusted with some people in our class who choose to market themselves by being exclusive, being cliquey, being brown-nosers...and I wanted to do none of that. I had forced myself to be involved with this organization on campus where like-minded people get together about wanting to pursue a life in industry, and i was so sick of it after two years. I quit after one year of serving on the board. People in it made fun of people and gossiped about each other during Board Dinner. And they only consider you 'useful' when you have something they want. I have always considered myself a social person (on the outside) but I just couldtn' deal with them anymore I didn't even attend the end-of-the year banquet (which was a big NO-NO). I couldn't spend another minute sitting at a table feeling like I wish I could be somewhere else. Hence I am glad that through it all, i am able to land a position that will likely make them fall off the chair upon hearing it. I just want to prove a point, that you dont have compromise who you are in order to get to where you want to be.
All happy thoughts aside, This of course is a very early point of my career to say that I've accomplished it all. Right now I will be working primarily in the cardiovascular/diabetes market. Although a HUGE market, this is not really where my passion lies. I had wanted to do branch into oncology because that seems to be the hot topic right now, but after 2 rotations at a cancer hospital I can't say I am in love with it. A part of me is still very resistant and disliking the complete unpredictability of chemo drugs. Rather, after 4 weeks into my current rotation, I am finding my passion in psychiatry back. Lots of interesting patient cases and lots of miracles can be done with antipsychotics/mood stabilizers/antidepressants. I'm not a total believer that everyone needs to be on something, there's lots that can be done with cognitive behavioral therapy/counseling. but i HAVE seen it work wonders in the most bizarre cases, which is the reason why psychiatry is so interesting. I sincerely hope, that one day, wherever life leads me, I can pursue it further whether that means going back to the research of psychotropics and just give pharmacy a rest. :)
That's is for now. So the much-delayed announcement on my blog is that, I am joining Bristol-Myers Squibb as a 1-year fellow in CV/Metabolic's Scientific Communication and Medical Strategy department. :) Yeah it's a mouthful....
And I will miss home a lot.
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