Why I haven't been updating as much

Well, two reasons:

1) Since my gmail account got hacked, I decided to discontinue using my old account and started a new one. However, the annoying thing thing is (as with all online social communities), all of my accounts are LINKED to gmail. That includes my gchat contacts, picasa photo album as well as my blog. Therefore, these links cannot be RE-LINKED to my new gmail account. So now i have to actually log into my old gmail in order to update my blog which is a hassel to do. And god knows how many hackers have browsed through my blog/pictures freely now. So i am seriously contemplating about starting a new blog. But that again will take some time and effort. And I really like this one because it's almost like a diary to me. I'm already lazy enough to update my blog, not to mention starting a BRAND NEW one. maybe when I move to NJ and have nothing better to do.

2) After graduation i have been packing like crazy to first ship my car, then i went on a couple trips (the most recent one with my family to Europe). And now i have to worry about shipping MYSELF there. So that adds a lot of stress to my last few days here in CA.

ok, now that i've explained myself (sort of), i'm gonna write a new post). ;)

Car SHIPPED

:(.....was my face when I saw my car being driven away.

I started packing about 2 days ago and have been doing it in a systematic way. I didn't realize how much stuff I need to bring with me until I actually started making a list. So I managed to fit in all my bedding stuff, a folding bookshelf, 2 large drawers, my printer, and a bunch of shoes and winter clothes, as well as stuff I can't very well bring with me when I fly over(like my favorite dvd collections/fun reads).

I have been getting more and more anxious about the move. I definitely felt sad that my car was going to leave first. My car is my second home, i've had it since college and it's been everywhere with me. I've moved so many times with it and it's taken so much beating from all of my driving around. And now my dear car is goin to embark on this journey before me. I'm sure I will feel so much better when I meet my car again in three weeks. Everything I have from CA is in the car and that sense of familiarity will really help calm me down.

Anyway, I am glad that at least my family is still here with me so i dont feel half as bad. Yesterday I already bidded some of my friends goodbye. Man it'll be hard when 6/27 comes around. :(

唉

"Your K+ is normal. :-)"


"Yes please drink more fluids. And please let me see you in one month."

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the last two messages I ever received from my cute doc. haha. yes pathetic I know. Well, basically i never could go back in one month because my student insurance Student Health coverage expired. I can either go to a clinic of my choice and pay the co-pay only, or go back to Student Health and pay $100+ to be seen for my skin irritation. So I made the choice and chose the former. AND because I am not crazy....i suppose i am rational enough to stay the hell away from people who i have a crush on. :( My sister was TRYING to convince me that he WANTS to see me therefore he said it that way in the message, and of course, being extremely rational and NORMAL, i feel otherwise.

So i ended up visiting this other practitioner in my area who i randomly found on the internet. He turned out to be this inpersonable old doctor who spent like 30 sec with you, didn't even shake my hand or even really tactilly inspect my 'dermatitis', didn't even use his precious hand to write prescriptions instead had a nurse do it for him while he dictated, and prescribed a bunch of overly priced, manufacture-coupon incented creams/lotions which you can probably get rather cheaply if you go with the GENERIC versions of them that would cost you $5/tube and not $40 with coupon. (the drug companies are smart enough to also use the coupons to track the prescribing habit of each practitioner so at the end of the either these docs can receive some kick-back or bonus for it). and so i could not pick up my prescription today as a result because these drugs are simply too new! they have to be ordered and will come in God-knows-when. Probably should have spent the extra money at student health to get my dermatitis checked out...at least visually it's far more pleasant.

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So back to my hot doc: i do feel somewhat like a loser. he could be gay, could have a gf, could just be a really nice person and a good doctor in general. Although we did have a nice little chat last time I went in I feel that it probably happens with everyone. AND. i'm moving. AND, i know nothing about him (i know something, but not everything) so he could have some weird habit on the side (like hanging out at the strip bar)....

唉.