Bite me!

@7:15 of this episode:

MONICA: Come on Rach, when a guy says he's going to call, it doesn't mean he's going to call. Hasn't it ever happened to you?

RACHEL: Well, they always called.

MONICA: Hmm, bite me.

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Yes, that's how i feel, most of the time.

I don't think i need to reiterate anymore than i already have how much intense pressure i'm under everytime i'm forced to make an appearance with my sis's. they are perfectly adquately aggreeable but when we do show up together in front of family friends/relatives/strangers everywhere I am forced to retract into my invisible suit completed with a helmet and soundproof glass.Yes i realize that they are unconventionally attractive, as i'm told millions of times in my face or not, and that their perfect skin/stature/style surpasses me 10 times.

which is why its only natural that we live different life experiences.

today and many times before, I would say something about how i can easily tell when a guy likes someone, because they make it pretty obvious. and i dont see how some girls can be oblivious to the fact because guys are pretty easy to read. then of course i was told that "because most guys talk to me, and often for a long time so i can't tell by normal people's standards, because that would mean that everyone likes me." and apparently no one ever ignores her in the hall way, so naturally it's not easy for her to tell whether someone likes her or not.

well, BITE ME THEN. i guess i shouldnt' generalize for most people since i definitely dont live in a world where people cannot bear to ignore me, they would follow me anywhere and i would get hit on by dentists, doctors, grocery store baggers, stereo shop sales people, jewelry designers, and barney's new york saleman. i'm sorry that i'm not called beautiful everyday of my life which makes it hard to distinguish whether people mean it or not (mostly not). I"m sorry that everytime i comment on someone in the store/on the street/ at a restaurant who seems cute and interesting that i'm told "that guy just tried to talk to me."

apparently the only thing god-given i have over my siblings is head above my shoulder which i'm not even sure if it's working anymore considering my struggle with school right now. and intelligence in today's world if anything is a flaw in women rather than a plus. it's almost impossible to find someone who's not slobbering after my friends or my sisters. even a frog would dream to be with a princess, and i happen to fall into the crack in earth that's neither beautiful or hideous, just plain.