a HUGE change

since it is already 1020pm here, and i really need some sleep because i had a long and yet unproductive day at the rotation, i will keep this one short. HOWEVER, i will be announcing the big news, very soon. ;) ( No i'm not getting married to some old folk like the psychic predicted 6 months ago, it's better than that). and telling the story will definitely make a lot of jaws drop. the only hint is: It's about work.

the change happened all so soon even 'I" cannot believe it. i mean. i must have done some pretty good things lately. It is so bizarre that things can drastically change within 48 hours. I was definitely depressed about my situation, and i can't say that I have been optimistic about what happens next year. but now....

The other thing I have to mention before I make the big announcement tomorrow is that, because I had been so hopeless about the immediate future, i actually started considering my plan B, which is to just move back to taiwan (and i meant it). For some reason the one month i spent in taiwan actually made me realize how much i miss it, and how much my oldest friends mean to me. There will be lots of friends who come and go in your life, but i feel that my childhood friends love me no matter what. and it's been 12 years since i left. I went through old pictures of myself being the SUPER ugly duckling back then, and the funny thing is, the friends who appeared with me in the pictures are the same friends who i still see today. they knew i was depressed about the job situation, they want/hope that one day i will be back for good, and yet they supported the decision i make and wish me the best of luck. they take me out to places and drive me around and show me the best eateries in town, without asking for anything in return. I dont know where I would be if it weren't these close friends and my family and my friends here in the US. I would be a miserable emotional f**k for sure.

Another reason is that, although it would be hard to say goodbye to my friends in the US, i have also come to a point where i have to make decisions. I am VERY close to a few people here, but there are also lots of people who come and go, especially teh friends you make when you grow up. due to relocation/graduation/job layoff, you can only remain close for so long (thanks facebook). So on some level i feel that if i were to ever move back to the US after returning to taiwan, i can always have a new start regardless of my temporary leave for taiwan.

But i suppose the above analysis although still holds true, will no longer apply in the immediate year that is to come. I still intend to return to taiwan at some point, to be close to my parents, to be living the convenient lifestyle, to meet someone and hopefully get married one day. But that will have to wait. At least for another year. ;)

to be continued....

And this is why, i feel extremely fortunate, for reasons i will explain tomorrow.